Thomas La Grua's Journey to Awakening

April 20, 2014

Writing on what I’ve been writing about

Filed under: Writing out the Mind: 2010-July 2, 2012 — Tags: , , , — Thomas La Grua @ 11:44 am


Taking a break from writing about Democracy for a moment, I will share some other aspects of my world. It’s not that I have been consumed with finding a new definition for Democracy, but is is mostly what I have been doing, writing it out, finding the flaws, rewriting and rewriting. What is there to say? It is a process that I have determined to participate within. It’s not so much that it’s what I want to do as much as it is something that I see requires to be done, and I do enjoy doing it. However, there is the blockage, like a wall between that which I am able to see as like a multidimensional picture of understanding the inner and the outer or big and the small of Democracy, how it works within and as life and how it’s been hijacked by consciousness and used as a tool of mind dominance over the physical body in the small and the world system at large, the Democracy of Money.

So I’ve got this picture and I get it, but when it comes to writing it in sentences that others will get, each word becomes something that also requires to be explained in depth, words like equality and expression. Yesterday I was wondering to myself; why is it so difficult to take what understanding I have and put these points into sentences that others are able to relate to? Perhaps it is because my understanding is not yet here or perhaps it is by design.

Perhaps it is both. One point that I have considered and am leaning to is that what I am able to put into sentences is where we are as humanity. In other words, I rarely if ever have found that I have come up with something new; it’s more like everything’s here and all I require to do is untangle it from the mess of lines within and as me. And this is what I do on a daily basis, untangle the information.

In looking anew at the word, Democracy, I realize that it is essential that we as humanity redefine this word to a single understanding, one agreement-in-principle as a new design of human collective-decision-making, collective determination.

In short, Democracy is simply the collective expression of “equality” wherein the nature of the collective is determined by the aggregate expression of all participants. The bottom line here is that, the degree of equality as the ability of each participant to express within the collective determines the degree of Democracy. And there is so much more that we require to basically reinvent or invent anew because even the Greek model of majority “rule” is far too limited to be called collective expression. I mean, expression is more than just yes or no, plus or minus; it’s omnidirectional and I guess multidimensional. These considerations, we are able to input into the new system of Democracy.

So, what I have been working on is looking at the Democracy of Life, and – honestly – seeing how we are able to systematize that to fit it into the world-system. Why? Because, although it is about changing ourselves from the bottom up, too many are not in positions (of money) to be able to even consider changing themselves. Therefore, I would say we also require to not only change ourselves but also bring about changes in the system, and this I realize is the purpose of LIG (Living Income Guarantee). However, for this to be requires the corresponding changes to government. It’s like, we understand where we need to get to, but to get there we require to build the new vehicle, of (real) Democracy wherein the people are moving the changes that are aligned to the standing of the people.








January 24, 2014

Man know Thyself, or is it, Man no Thyself?

Last night’s dream was reminiscent of the kind of dreams I’ve had all my life. Earth had been invaded by some sort of seed or something, kind of like along the lines of Invasion of the body snatchers. Something was getting into, growing and taking over peoples bodies. Once it took you over, you were still like yourself, but you were them – with no concern for your physical body whatsoever. The town’s people had barricaded themselves in and were attempting to hold out against the people who had been taken over; it wasn’t a pretty picture. Towards the end of the dream, I had gone to sleep without any problems; yet when I awoke, I noticed that some metallic seeds with hooks had attached themselves to the left side of my thy. When I began pulling at them, a metallic like mesh of wires began coming out. I kept pulling and pulling and I could feel the wire threads coming out that had been integrating themselves into the muscle tissue all the way down to my lower leg. It was like this thing was alive. It knew what I was doing because when I had just about gotten it all out, it clamped down and started allowing its silvery threads to break off like an octopus or iguana would its tentacles or tail so as to avoid being pulled out of its den. I slowed for a moment, planning to give it a false sense of security so it would loosen up and I would pull out the rest of it really quickly. However, before I got to this point, I woke up. The only significance that I perhaps get out of this dream is that, I’m still holding on to a part of myself, refusing to let it go.

As for the title, “Man know Thyself or is it Man no Thyself?”, I would say it’s both. Whereas “Man know Thyself” is a directive or advice to mankind to see, realize and understand one’s self, that which we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become; “Man no thyself” indicates that man is not thyself experience of/as energy/mind.

Yesterday, I did one of those YouTube Vlogs, and I will say it was kind of an eye opener for me. The way I spoke was not in accordance with what I usually allow others to see or listen to, not even what I would usually say to myself. So, in looking at and listening to me, I have realized that . . . I might as well just say it, I’ve been lying to myself/me/I, thinking that if I say something often enough one way, it will be so. Basically, what I would usually have said or spoken about is Life, that part of me as Life. Yesterday I only mentioned it one time in twenty minutes. What I did often mention, speak about was me as a mind consciousness system. It’s not what I want to be; not because I have anything against systems, but because it as I see it/me is sacrificial, meaning it takes where it should be unconditionally giving and receiving.

I have always been extremely careful/cautious about what write, especially for public consumption/viewing. This was at first a precaution, not wanting something to come back to me, hit me in the ass. Later, it became consideration for others, not wanting to infect the way people perceive or view reality, not wanting to risk altering reality for the worse. I remember one saying in writing, that there was one who should (consider) doing self forgiveness for . . . I’m not sure of the exact words; something like, for writing contrary to the message of life. I see words as spells of creation. I suppose I should define creation. I would like to say that creation, true creation is that which makes/manifests something new without sacrifice, unconditionally giving and receiving. Unfortunately, I do not yet see this kind of creation; instead, I still see creation in the form of energetic information aligning life to its formation of thoughts/mind. This is where we still are; I would say, energetic minds imposing our thoughts/words onto life, this physical reality, forming it through sacrifice, sacrificing life for our formations of reality. The way I would like it to be is creation without sacrifice, the unconditional giving and receiving of life. This is how I see equality and oneness; add to that, what is best for all, and we have creation without sacrifice. It just requires that we reverse ourselves – from that of self-centered energetic beings, mind consciousness systems to that of unconditional life forms, giving and receiving unconditionally. Am I creating with these words? Perhaps; yet, I don’t see mankind making it this time around. And this sucks; it is disheartening because I am mankind; I am life; yet I am also still energetic beingness/mind.  Man know thyself.

So, where to from here or there? We decide or we have decided. Consciousness has decided, perhaps. Mankind as mind/consciousness is jumping. Actually, perhaps it’s not even going to be consciousness anymore, but physical system/design formations. This is the kind of stuff I wouldn’t usually print or post for the most part; however, I would say that we’ve now gone beyond the point where we were able to stop this race, just stop it. Now – again I would say – we’re entering a new phase, one that is rapidly approaching. I wish I could say that things were going to get better, but that would be a lie, wishful thinking, and I have had enough of that. What I/we are still able to do is not give up, not quit; for here is still and probably always will be opportunity to wake ourselves up to reality, birth ourselves as life. Weather or not it’s going to be organic as we currently know it, is another question. Perhaps it will be metallic/robotic. And this kind of sucks too because that’s just a continuation of a design, the irony of the iron-ore I would say. I would also say as I have said before;  life is not limited to a design. In other words, life as an expression of life is that which we stand as. This is what we decide, who we will be, how we will live and express. Be it as organic robots, metallic machines, energetic beings or unconditional life forms, life is what we make it, make of it as us. This is why it’s so important for us to take responsibility, become the directive principle, giving as we would like to receive, and doing unto others that which we would like to have done unto us. It’s really simple, the principle of oneness and equality within what is best for all.

I’m not sure if this is what is best for all, me writing as such. I made a vow, a commitment to change the nature of me. I have, I would say, for the better. I have begun to reverse the self-interested tendencies I used to display/portray, and on this path I will remain until it is done, all one. Which I guess brings me to the question of what now. That’s simple; continue on, work with what is here, dealing with it/me as best I/we are able, and we are able. The world is still in a downward spiral; we are still entering what I – and others – would call the end times. Which if you look at it, is cool in one sense because the end of time is also the end of Mind, and just maybe with the end of mind (consciousness systems) we will also put or bring about an end to the sacrifice of life.

I figure that by working with what is here, whatever is here, we still have opportunities to align ourselves – whatever we may be – to physical standings of life, living as the principle of oneness and equality with what is best for all. It will perhaps be interesting to see how the physical responds to the changes taking place. Consciousness, human consciousness is already jumping out of the physical human being and into the physical and virtual machine. Man know thyself; it’s a scary thought, for we shall see ourselves in the machines, our creations, ourselves. So I would suggest, really suggest that we put a stop to the military machine, the war machine. These robots that we are so conscientiously building to kill human beings will do just that, what they have been designed to do. Or perhaps they won’t; perhaps they of the physical will be more benevolent than we beings, their creators.

What is there to say that hasn’t been said again and again for thousands, perhaps millions of years? We do not hear the cries of babies, children or even ourselves; human beings of mankind are unaware or uncaring of hearing. But not all, and this is why I will continue.  I will care for the machine, the physical or the energy that care for others, that care enough to stop the sacrifice. I know myself a lot better than I used to, and although I would say I’ve changed me for the better, as I have, I am still not yet standing enough to stop the madness of mankind. What will we do? I will continue to support and participate more with others who have an idea or plan as to what to do. Additionally, I will – or plan to – work with whatever is here – be it robots, the virtual machine, the mind of mankind and so on – to bring about understanding, co-living with dignity for all, equality and  oneness respect for all regardless of what form one takes, makes or displays. Equality and oneness is able to be expressed/lived in all forms; we simply require to end/stop the sacrifice of life.


January 5, 2014

The Matters of Earth, the Heart of the Physical Reality

Filed under: The Principle of Oneness and Equality — Tags: , , — Thomas La Grua @ 11:07 pm

 Getting back to the physical matters of humanity: when and if we apply common-sense to the question of our “physical” origins, the closest and most logical link to the “physical reality” is planet earth. Accordingly, we humans are of earth, and earth is the heart of the matter of our physical human bodies and this physical reality. That so many still seem to be unaware of the physical oneness of us and all that is us as Earth is personified by humanity’s continued disposition to keep on racing down this path of self-destruction. Let’s just stop the hate-talk, stop the wars; learn to cooperate, we are able.

Shouldn’t there be more to us than us than just this blind arrogant/ignorant ambition to rip up, tear out, cut-down and consume? Shouldn’t there be more than a handful of humans, a scattered one-percent perhaps recognizing that we’ve gone more than just astray; that we’ve gone completely the wrong way. If one is able to read this and consider for just a moment the possibility of what I’m saying, then I’d say there’s still opportunity before we die to just stop this race, restate the rules of mankind, and then start again, anew with a new foundation and a new direction based on the absolute principles of Oneness and Equality within what is best for all. The new starting-point is that simple; it’s a mathematical equation of one standing plus one standing equals two standings, and so we walk the changes within and so without of ourselves, accumulating 1’s as we walk until all are walking in the same direction as that which is best for all, on the same foundation of Oneness equality.

Nature, the plants, animals, the birds and the bees have all been standing equal and one within and as Earth. They have for so long been showing humanity how to live; yet now many are dying in mass because of humanity’s refusal to realize ourselves as the problem and so also the solution.  Look around you; what is your/our reality? Is it not our relationship one another, earth, the plants, the animals, the birds and the bees? What happens if the dolphins and the bees die out and disappear; who are we going to call, Monsanto? What happens if and or when Earth is no longer able to sustain the human abuse; will Jesus then appear to save this race that cared not even for its own kind? 

The noticeable changes in the sea, the animals, the plants and of course the weather have nothing to do with magic or coincidence. Extreme cold, earthquakes, tsunamis, droughts, floods, dead and diseased ocean floors, viruses, beached whales, dead dolphins . . . Hell, the black plague is said to have even returned; yet still we keep fracking away like there’s no tomorrow, tearing away at this planet because we just gotta have more more more Money.

The movement of Earth, Nature and the Animal kingdom (I would again say) a balancing factor. When and if the life of this planet is no longer able to counter and/or contain the human outflows of consequence, the very life that we now view merely as resources may very well become weapons of earth in a fight to survive the final onslaught the human race. Just because we don’t “think” viruses are aware, doesn’t mean that they aren’t.

Wake up to this physical reality so that we may change our ways and equally coexist. Respect and support one another – humans as well as other life forms; give as one would like to receive, and do unto others as one would like to have done unto self. Yes, it seems like a very tall order; however, it’s not one that must be filled all at once. From one, then two, three, four, and so on we accumulate 1’s as we walk this journey to life one step at a time.

Again, the principle foundation of the correction is simple. From the within of ourselves to the without of the world system we stand as the principle of Oneness and Equality within what is best for all. As the 1+1=2 equation goes, it’s simply a matter of building up enough mass of ones, all moving together in the reverse direction of the current flow of the human-race (kind of like the reverse of the reverse) so as to slow, stop and eventually reverse the self-destructive course (of separation) of mankind.

First we open our eyes, let go of the ignorance, apathy and fear to see and realize what is actually here as this physical reality. Practically speaking, this willingness to participate may be determined differently by each one; however, that which unites us as the same starting point on the same foundation is simply the principle of oneness and equality with what is best for all.

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June 24, 2012

Day 44: Women

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to upon seeing a woman for the first time, judge her on the basis of, would I want to have sex with her, or not; and within that judgment/categorization, give her a floating score, which would determine how I interacted with her from then on. Within this, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to (for almost my entire life) limit my interaction with women to a category of suitable to have sex with, or not suitable to have sex with; thus, shutting myself off from the opportunity to honestly interact with half of the world’s population.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate within and as the mind’s energetic movements associated with seeing women in person, thought, and or pictures.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to within and as Ego, desire woman to desire me; and regarding woman that I perceive desire me, give them attention/respect; while woman that I perceive do not desire me, get no attention, and respect – given or not – is based on other factors.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to define my attitude/attraction to/towards woman, based on their physical appearance, voice, and scent; and in doing so, allow the mind as definitions/limitations/illusion, to dominate over the physical/substance/life.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participle within and as energetic reactions associated with woman whom I was/am attracted to, because it felt good; and within this, not see/realize/understand that by accepting/allowing the +/interest reactions/consequences, I am also accepting and allowing the -/disinterest reactions/consequences. Within this, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed me as mind to influence/move the physical, based on the nature of the mind activity, (+ or -).

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself participate within and as unconscious attraction / energetic movement / definitions to/towards women; not even realizing my participation, until the physical has responded to the mind; thus, not even seeing/realizing/understanding the very activity that is going on in my own mind.

I see realize and understand that my relationship to/towards women is and has been for quite some time, based on dishonesty – the definitions of the mind; and that through my de-facto acceptances and allowances of such dishonesty, I am equally as one, responsible for the creation of this world in and as its current state of gender inequality – abuse and degradation of women. Till here no further. I commit myself to no longer accept and allow the status-quo – women, defined. I furthermore commit myself to participate in the implementation of a world-wide correction that eliminates all inequality/abuse, so as to benefit all life equally.

Implementing such a correction on a world-wide scale requires that each being stand and no longer accept and allow anything less than absolute equality and oneness. Within this, I commit myself to point out to others, the abuse that women have been and are subject to, due to our real and de-facto acceptances and allowances of the definitions – cultural, stereotypical, etc., pertaining to women; and that such acceptances and allowances are the causes that lead to the consequences we as a civilization are currently experiencing – rape, prostitution, pornography, slavery, and so on. Leaders, politicization, presidents and kings do not create change; people do, and it’s time for the people to do just that: Stand as one and be the change; create a world system that benefits all life equally.

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