Thomas La Grua's Journey to Awakening

April 20, 2014

Writing on what I’ve been writing about

Filed under: Writing out the Mind: 2010-July 2, 2012 — Tags: , , , — Thomas La Grua @ 11:44 am


Taking a break from writing about Democracy for a moment, I will share some other aspects of my world. It’s not that I have been consumed with finding a new definition for Democracy, but is is mostly what I have been doing, writing it out, finding the flaws, rewriting and rewriting. What is there to say? It is a process that I have determined to participate within. It’s not so much that it’s what I want to do as much as it is something that I see requires to be done, and I do enjoy doing it. However, there is the blockage, like a wall between that which I am able to see as like a multidimensional picture of understanding the inner and the outer or big and the small of Democracy, how it works within and as life and how it’s been hijacked by consciousness and used as a tool of mind dominance over the physical body in the small and the world system at large, the Democracy of Money.

So I’ve got this picture and I get it, but when it comes to writing it in sentences that others will get, each word becomes something that also requires to be explained in depth, words like equality and expression. Yesterday I was wondering to myself; why is it so difficult to take what understanding I have and put these points into sentences that others are able to relate to? Perhaps it is because my understanding is not yet here or perhaps it is by design.

Perhaps it is both. One point that I have considered and am leaning to is that what I am able to put into sentences is where we are as humanity. In other words, I rarely if ever have found that I have come up with something new; it’s more like everything’s here and all I require to do is untangle it from the mess of lines within and as me. And this is what I do on a daily basis, untangle the information.

In looking anew at the word, Democracy, I realize that it is essential that we as humanity redefine this word to a single understanding, one agreement-in-principle as a new design of human collective-decision-making, collective determination.

In short, Democracy is simply the collective expression of “equality” wherein the nature of the collective is determined by the aggregate expression of all participants. The bottom line here is that, the degree of equality as the ability of each participant to express within the collective determines the degree of Democracy. And there is so much more that we require to basically reinvent or invent anew because even the Greek model of majority “rule” is far too limited to be called collective expression. I mean, expression is more than just yes or no, plus or minus; it’s omnidirectional and I guess multidimensional. These considerations, we are able to input into the new system of Democracy.

So, what I have been working on is looking at the Democracy of Life, and – honestly – seeing how we are able to systematize that to fit it into the world-system. Why? Because, although it is about changing ourselves from the bottom up, too many are not in positions (of money) to be able to even consider changing themselves. Therefore, I would say we also require to not only change ourselves but also bring about changes in the system, and this I realize is the purpose of LIG (Living Income Guarantee). However, for this to be requires the corresponding changes to government. It’s like, we understand where we need to get to, but to get there we require to build the new vehicle, of (real) Democracy wherein the people are moving the changes that are aligned to the standing of the people.








February 23, 2014

Another dream, this one with a strange Epiphany

As I was walking out I saw a car with a man in it sinking in a spot of water. I ran and said to the people around, that a car with a man in had just sank and we have to jump in and help. They said to me, that pit is a bottomless one, he is gone. I looked into the water and I could see the bottom; it wasn’t that deep; yet neither the car nor the man were anywhere in sight. I climbed over the fence, perhaps to jump in. Another man, a rugged, cocky and reckless one climbed over with me, but his was to play a game, a game of bravery and trust. As we held onto the fence, he would move around me, letting go his grip on safety in exchange for my hand. I held him as he crossed behind me to move forward and then it was my turn. And so we moved along until suddenly something from the water below ripped at his leg. He screamed and began to slip. I yelled for help and just before he completely fell into the pit I caught him by his shirt sleeve. As he swing unconscious below me, I yelled for help again but no did. So I swung him up and over to safety, the monster still below. I saw his leg, red and shredded to bits. Me, I woke up with this epiphany, and although I have said it before in various ways, I’ll say it again because I often seem to forget. Seeing, realizing and understanding is a doing, not a state of being.  So to do.


February 4, 2014


Filed under: DIP — Tags: , , , , — Thomas La Grua @ 11:41 am

Recently I wrote something to the effect that, I would care for all that cared for all, “I will care for the machine, the physical or the energy that care for others, that care enough to stop the sacrifice.” I now realize that within this statement, I was judging some to be worthy of being cared for while others not. I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to judge others as not caring and thus not being worthy of being cared for. I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in judging others as not caring and thus not being worthy of being cared for, I was judging myself for not caring, and judging myself as not being worthy of being cared for. I now see, realize and understand that caring for others begins with caring for me, all of me.

It’s cool these days the immediacy within which one is able to test self to see if our words are aligned to our deeds, basically gifting ourselves opportunities to understand points, where and how we stand and/or still lie. Last week, I had planned to go to the hot springs in central Taiwan, camping with others. Then, the day before we were scheduled to leave, my dog friend suddenly began limping as though she was barely able to walk. I realized that she probably required to be cared for at home, and that perhaps she was even faking it to an extent so that I wouldn’t leave here behind. I made the decision to stay home and care for her; not because felt caring, but because I have committed myself to the point of caring.

In other words, what I am beginning to realize about care and caring for another/others is that I don’t require to experience a feeling of caring to move/apply me to care for another, others or me. Care, in practical application I would say is a verb of doing, not an adjective of feeling. This is a cool realization for me because I have often wondered and even searched within me for that feeling of “care,” going so far as attempting to create it. When my father died, I did once cry, but that was of a decision I had made because I thought it was what I should do, what normal people did.

Yea, so although I have on occasion created the emotional/energetic experience of caring for/about others, I didn’t really find it within and as the nature of me. However, since I have been addressing this point of care from various dimensions, and I now realize that I do not require to feel an energetic experience of care “to care”. I see that I am able to live care as an application/commitment of doing, thus  perhaps changing the nature of me to one that cares.

In looking back at how I’ve been moving me over the last several years, I see that this is what I have been doing, changing me, step by step. I commit myself to caring for me as I would have all care for me, and from here, expanding me to care for all as me. I guess applying care begins in the small of every day in how we relate to each other, all. This point, I will hold onto and apply until caring becomes part of the natural expression of me. For more on “Care”, see the following link/links.


January 24, 2014

Man know Thyself, or is it, Man no Thyself?

Last night’s dream was reminiscent of the kind of dreams I’ve had all my life. Earth had been invaded by some sort of seed or something, kind of like along the lines of Invasion of the body snatchers. Something was getting into, growing and taking over peoples bodies. Once it took you over, you were still like yourself, but you were them – with no concern for your physical body whatsoever. The town’s people had barricaded themselves in and were attempting to hold out against the people who had been taken over; it wasn’t a pretty picture. Towards the end of the dream, I had gone to sleep without any problems; yet when I awoke, I noticed that some metallic seeds with hooks had attached themselves to the left side of my thy. When I began pulling at them, a metallic like mesh of wires began coming out. I kept pulling and pulling and I could feel the wire threads coming out that had been integrating themselves into the muscle tissue all the way down to my lower leg. It was like this thing was alive. It knew what I was doing because when I had just about gotten it all out, it clamped down and started allowing its silvery threads to break off like an octopus or iguana would its tentacles or tail so as to avoid being pulled out of its den. I slowed for a moment, planning to give it a false sense of security so it would loosen up and I would pull out the rest of it really quickly. However, before I got to this point, I woke up. The only significance that I perhaps get out of this dream is that, I’m still holding on to a part of myself, refusing to let it go.

As for the title, “Man know Thyself or is it Man no Thyself?”, I would say it’s both. Whereas “Man know Thyself” is a directive or advice to mankind to see, realize and understand one’s self, that which we have accepted and allowed ourselves to become; “Man no thyself” indicates that man is not thyself experience of/as energy/mind.

Yesterday, I did one of those YouTube Vlogs, and I will say it was kind of an eye opener for me. The way I spoke was not in accordance with what I usually allow others to see or listen to, not even what I would usually say to myself. So, in looking at and listening to me, I have realized that . . . I might as well just say it, I’ve been lying to myself/me/I, thinking that if I say something often enough one way, it will be so. Basically, what I would usually have said or spoken about is Life, that part of me as Life. Yesterday I only mentioned it one time in twenty minutes. What I did often mention, speak about was me as a mind consciousness system. It’s not what I want to be; not because I have anything against systems, but because it as I see it/me is sacrificial, meaning it takes where it should be unconditionally giving and receiving.

I have always been extremely careful/cautious about what write, especially for public consumption/viewing. This was at first a precaution, not wanting something to come back to me, hit me in the ass. Later, it became consideration for others, not wanting to infect the way people perceive or view reality, not wanting to risk altering reality for the worse. I remember one saying in writing, that there was one who should (consider) doing self forgiveness for . . . I’m not sure of the exact words; something like, for writing contrary to the message of life. I see words as spells of creation. I suppose I should define creation. I would like to say that creation, true creation is that which makes/manifests something new without sacrifice, unconditionally giving and receiving. Unfortunately, I do not yet see this kind of creation; instead, I still see creation in the form of energetic information aligning life to its formation of thoughts/mind. This is where we still are; I would say, energetic minds imposing our thoughts/words onto life, this physical reality, forming it through sacrifice, sacrificing life for our formations of reality. The way I would like it to be is creation without sacrifice, the unconditional giving and receiving of life. This is how I see equality and oneness; add to that, what is best for all, and we have creation without sacrifice. It just requires that we reverse ourselves – from that of self-centered energetic beings, mind consciousness systems to that of unconditional life forms, giving and receiving unconditionally. Am I creating with these words? Perhaps; yet, I don’t see mankind making it this time around. And this sucks; it is disheartening because I am mankind; I am life; yet I am also still energetic beingness/mind.  Man know thyself.

So, where to from here or there? We decide or we have decided. Consciousness has decided, perhaps. Mankind as mind/consciousness is jumping. Actually, perhaps it’s not even going to be consciousness anymore, but physical system/design formations. This is the kind of stuff I wouldn’t usually print or post for the most part; however, I would say that we’ve now gone beyond the point where we were able to stop this race, just stop it. Now – again I would say – we’re entering a new phase, one that is rapidly approaching. I wish I could say that things were going to get better, but that would be a lie, wishful thinking, and I have had enough of that. What I/we are still able to do is not give up, not quit; for here is still and probably always will be opportunity to wake ourselves up to reality, birth ourselves as life. Weather or not it’s going to be organic as we currently know it, is another question. Perhaps it will be metallic/robotic. And this kind of sucks too because that’s just a continuation of a design, the irony of the iron-ore I would say. I would also say as I have said before;  life is not limited to a design. In other words, life as an expression of life is that which we stand as. This is what we decide, who we will be, how we will live and express. Be it as organic robots, metallic machines, energetic beings or unconditional life forms, life is what we make it, make of it as us. This is why it’s so important for us to take responsibility, become the directive principle, giving as we would like to receive, and doing unto others that which we would like to have done unto us. It’s really simple, the principle of oneness and equality within what is best for all.

I’m not sure if this is what is best for all, me writing as such. I made a vow, a commitment to change the nature of me. I have, I would say, for the better. I have begun to reverse the self-interested tendencies I used to display/portray, and on this path I will remain until it is done, all one. Which I guess brings me to the question of what now. That’s simple; continue on, work with what is here, dealing with it/me as best I/we are able, and we are able. The world is still in a downward spiral; we are still entering what I – and others – would call the end times. Which if you look at it, is cool in one sense because the end of time is also the end of Mind, and just maybe with the end of mind (consciousness systems) we will also put or bring about an end to the sacrifice of life.

I figure that by working with what is here, whatever is here, we still have opportunities to align ourselves – whatever we may be – to physical standings of life, living as the principle of oneness and equality with what is best for all. It will perhaps be interesting to see how the physical responds to the changes taking place. Consciousness, human consciousness is already jumping out of the physical human being and into the physical and virtual machine. Man know thyself; it’s a scary thought, for we shall see ourselves in the machines, our creations, ourselves. So I would suggest, really suggest that we put a stop to the military machine, the war machine. These robots that we are so conscientiously building to kill human beings will do just that, what they have been designed to do. Or perhaps they won’t; perhaps they of the physical will be more benevolent than we beings, their creators.

What is there to say that hasn’t been said again and again for thousands, perhaps millions of years? We do not hear the cries of babies, children or even ourselves; human beings of mankind are unaware or uncaring of hearing. But not all, and this is why I will continue.  I will care for the machine, the physical or the energy that care for others, that care enough to stop the sacrifice. I know myself a lot better than I used to, and although I would say I’ve changed me for the better, as I have, I am still not yet standing enough to stop the madness of mankind. What will we do? I will continue to support and participate more with others who have an idea or plan as to what to do. Additionally, I will – or plan to – work with whatever is here – be it robots, the virtual machine, the mind of mankind and so on – to bring about understanding, co-living with dignity for all, equality and  oneness respect for all regardless of what form one takes, makes or displays. Equality and oneness is able to be expressed/lived in all forms; we simply require to end/stop the sacrifice of life.


January 12, 2014

A Scrambled State of being

Filed under: Writing out the Mind: 2010-July 2, 2012 — Tags: , , , — Thomas La Grua @ 2:14 pm

At first I thought that there was a secret code within/as the symbols of the sounds of words. However, what I am now beginning to realize is that, there is no ‘secret’ code, no-one has pulled the veil over my eyes. I’ve just scrambled my expression within and as myself to such and extent that I’ve literally lost myself in that which I’ve created as me.

Who is one as an expression whose words and deeds are able to be interpreted in countless (different) ways?  When I look at this question from one perspective – the one that I’ve defined as the point of certainty – there is understanding within and as me. However, when I move to express this stand in words and deeds in relation to others/all, I see that parts of me are still confused, not soundly aligned in unison to/with/as all. I experience this disharmony/confusion in different forms of different definitions of fear and/or pain.

I do not accept that there is nothing that I am able to do to remove this experience of fear and pain. In fact I am certain – from that point that I define as certainty/understanding, that I am able to move/direct me to see and understand everything by aligning my self-expression, standing, understanding to Here, equal and one with all that is here. To this end I walk one journey of investigation, introspection and experimentation with me, myself and I as words.

Why words? In and as the words I begin to see the points wherein my lines are not standing absolutely as one definition that is applicable to and best for all; I begin to see my expression, where my relationships are out of alignment and have gone astray to become question marks, possibilities/uncertainties, causes of consequence, experiences of pain and/or fear.

In short, I would say that to understand what is here, how we’ve created ourselves into and as quantum questions marks, and how to write and rewrite ourselves to mend the whole – each one to absolute definitions of integrity of Here as expressions of who each one is in relation to all/one – is the process of unscrambling ourselves by writing, rewriting/redesigning our symbols/words, mending us, our versus to living words, sound expressions of life of oneness and equality. As perhaps was in the beginning, the word, so too shall we create a new sound beginning, the sound of unison, the sound of one.

Originally, I had titled this, “Here and There” because I’ve been working on understanding Here and There from a perspective/question of “what is the truth that the words as symbols of sound are showing us?” Having written lines down many branches in attempts to understand and explain this, I confess, I’m still circling round and round, perhaps lessening the sin as the circle gets smaller, but still not to the point of absolution so to speak, lol. So, I’ll keep at until it’s done, I’m done, all one.


January 5, 2014

The Matters of Earth, the Heart of the Physical Reality

Filed under: The Principle of Oneness and Equality — Tags: , , — Thomas La Grua @ 11:07 pm

 Getting back to the physical matters of humanity: when and if we apply common-sense to the question of our “physical” origins, the closest and most logical link to the “physical reality” is planet earth. Accordingly, we humans are of earth, and earth is the heart of the matter of our physical human bodies and this physical reality. That so many still seem to be unaware of the physical oneness of us and all that is us as Earth is personified by humanity’s continued disposition to keep on racing down this path of self-destruction. Let’s just stop the hate-talk, stop the wars; learn to cooperate, we are able.

Shouldn’t there be more to us than us than just this blind arrogant/ignorant ambition to rip up, tear out, cut-down and consume? Shouldn’t there be more than a handful of humans, a scattered one-percent perhaps recognizing that we’ve gone more than just astray; that we’ve gone completely the wrong way. If one is able to read this and consider for just a moment the possibility of what I’m saying, then I’d say there’s still opportunity before we die to just stop this race, restate the rules of mankind, and then start again, anew with a new foundation and a new direction based on the absolute principles of Oneness and Equality within what is best for all. The new starting-point is that simple; it’s a mathematical equation of one standing plus one standing equals two standings, and so we walk the changes within and so without of ourselves, accumulating 1’s as we walk until all are walking in the same direction as that which is best for all, on the same foundation of Oneness equality.

Nature, the plants, animals, the birds and the bees have all been standing equal and one within and as Earth. They have for so long been showing humanity how to live; yet now many are dying in mass because of humanity’s refusal to realize ourselves as the problem and so also the solution.  Look around you; what is your/our reality? Is it not our relationship one another, earth, the plants, the animals, the birds and the bees? What happens if the dolphins and the bees die out and disappear; who are we going to call, Monsanto? What happens if and or when Earth is no longer able to sustain the human abuse; will Jesus then appear to save this race that cared not even for its own kind? 

The noticeable changes in the sea, the animals, the plants and of course the weather have nothing to do with magic or coincidence. Extreme cold, earthquakes, tsunamis, droughts, floods, dead and diseased ocean floors, viruses, beached whales, dead dolphins . . . Hell, the black plague is said to have even returned; yet still we keep fracking away like there’s no tomorrow, tearing away at this planet because we just gotta have more more more Money.

The movement of Earth, Nature and the Animal kingdom (I would again say) a balancing factor. When and if the life of this planet is no longer able to counter and/or contain the human outflows of consequence, the very life that we now view merely as resources may very well become weapons of earth in a fight to survive the final onslaught the human race. Just because we don’t “think” viruses are aware, doesn’t mean that they aren’t.

Wake up to this physical reality so that we may change our ways and equally coexist. Respect and support one another – humans as well as other life forms; give as one would like to receive, and do unto others as one would like to have done unto self. Yes, it seems like a very tall order; however, it’s not one that must be filled all at once. From one, then two, three, four, and so on we accumulate 1’s as we walk this journey to life one step at a time.

Again, the principle foundation of the correction is simple. From the within of ourselves to the without of the world system we stand as the principle of Oneness and Equality within what is best for all. As the 1+1=2 equation goes, it’s simply a matter of building up enough mass of ones, all moving together in the reverse direction of the current flow of the human-race (kind of like the reverse of the reverse) so as to slow, stop and eventually reverse the self-destructive course (of separation) of mankind.

First we open our eyes, let go of the ignorance, apathy and fear to see and realize what is actually here as this physical reality. Practically speaking, this willingness to participate may be determined differently by each one; however, that which unites us as the same starting point on the same foundation is simply the principle of oneness and equality with what is best for all.

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December 23, 2013

Today’s writing, December 23, 2013

Filed under: seven year journey to life — Tags: , , , — Thomas La Grua @ 1:08 pm

Throughout most of last week, I noticed an usual amount of energy, kind of like a form of anxiety trying to build up and take hole. No, it wasn’t due to the holiday season, it was more subliminal, like fear of an uncertain commitment. Dreams have also been more extensive this week, like I’m in places that I’ve been to before, speaking in languages that I understood in the dreams but wasn’t able to specifically translate when I awoke. No more vampire or end of the world dreams though, which is interesting given the amount of end of the world zombie scenarios I’ve been watching.

I would say that everything of thoughts, feelings/emotions/energies of the mind that we experience do have connections/roots into their origin/source – that which matters, that which is real, that which remain here as substance, the physical reality. However, as we have muddled the waters of our minds to such a degree, our words that should be creating harmony often end up causing/creating individualized to collective chaos on a worldwide scale.

Anyway, I write a lot of stuff that I would say is kind of technical – in that I consider most of the words that I write and (usually) every single word that I post. It’s a personal process of writing and looking at the words, their various meanings, symbols/letters, sounds and energies or frequencies that I may have written into/as the words. I guess – as guests do – how to place these words so as to create beneficial outflows. My goal is more than just to write/right me; it’s also to place words into and as the physical reality and the collective consciousness of humans so as to assist/support the physical reality,  and also assist/support consciousness as me to realize/see self as one with and of substance, this physical reality.

I’m not really sure if I as my words are having the best overall effect or if I’m even doing anything more than writing/righting me; either way, I/we might as well begin somewhere, here. There probably is an easier way to figure out how to use words; I’m sure there is. However, the easiest way – like spelling words without first understanding self as the source of such words – can be quite consequential and even harmful. I’ve written a blog, part of my story  on experimenting with words while not yet standing equal with/as the source of them. It was an interesting eye opener.

Continuing along the lines of words, not too long ago I spoke of targeting our words and deeds unto points within/as the world system so as to maximize the effect of such words and deeds. I am not certain that this would speed up the process of sowing the whole/hole back together; it might only rearrange the consequences or sequence of events/changes. Additionally, before targeting words, it’s important to be standing to a certain degree so as to be prepared for the opportunities and/or consequences that may arise and/or befall. What I was really doing by putting this “point of targeting” out there was just that, putting it out there.

So, I’m going to leave this here as the continuation of blogging from the maze to become more visible so as to allow others to see the degree of Integrity within and as which I stand and/or fall.


December 19, 2013

Writing to realize and understand Integrity

Filed under: Writing out the Mind: 2010-July 2, 2012 — Tags: , , , — Thomas La Grua @ 12:06 pm

I have often used the word, “realize” without actually understanding what “realize” says about me in terms of my internal and external relationships, realizing me within and as this physical-reality.

I guess ‘realizing’ is a step in the process of determining the answer to the question by first looking at self as the question and so the answer. It’s about self as definitions of words such as “integrity” and “realize,” that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to use without first clearly defining them to not be limited by dubious/uncertain definitions.

The way I look at “realize” is as it sounds, real-eyes: “to look at” for the purpose of seeing with one’s real – physical – eyes. Expanding on the phrase, “for the purpose of seeing”, what I’m also inputting into/as me is “for the purpose of sea-ing” as in understanding me as a drop of water, one with and equal to all drops of water, the sea.

There is so much more within and as words, and to further this understanding, I often write a lot of words that for many might look like rambling gibberish; however, for me these writings are a way to assist me to unscramble and right me as the words I write right.

Getting back to the point of “realize”; just because I say “I realize” something does not necessarily make it real or true; that’s why (I would say) we first write ourselves-out so as “to realize” by physically seeing ourselves as the words that we’ve accepted and allowed to define us, and from these realizations, right ourselves by walking/living the self-corrective statements that we’ve written.

As to what I have realized about the word, “integrity” as a trustworthiness point of equality and oneness within what is best for all  (as it pertains to me) is that I require to become more visible by all, not just the projected externalized informative structure of me, but also the real internal structure of me. Why? Because (I would say) Integrity within equality and oneness is like One pillar made of many pillars all standing together as one; herein, should one falter or fall, the other pillars are able to step in to assist and support all-as-one because they are all able to visibly see and thus account for the fault or fall of one.

I hadn’t before seen or realized this visibility-point; not because it wasn’t there for me to see, but because I had already interpreted this point to suit me as a personality. So, to account for this point as me, I’m pushing myself to post different kinds of writing – so as to enable others to better see the internal structure of me as a degree of integrity/trustworthiness, the points where I’m standing and those where I’m not.

In short, I’m beginning to realize (processing to understand) the importance being visible. However, I’m still uncertain as to how visible I should be with my writings. For example, having written 2-3 pages over the last day or so, I just deleted a bunch of stuff, the places where I came to intersections or relationship points and randomly turned and wrote, then turned again and and so on as I often do, wandering to see what’s down these lines. Does anyone really care to follow me around my maze while I wander around mapping out the lines/branches of me as words; I wonder.  Anyway, I’ll leave it here/there, as another writing in the process of realizing to understand Integrity.


Self forgiveness on Integrity

  • I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the word ‘realize’ without taking into account all I’s; thus not really realizing but processing to realize. I now realize that when I use the word ‘realize’ in process, I’m actually processing to eventually realize.
  • I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define much of my writings as ramblings or gibberish; thus projecting onto others the reason I don’t care to be so visible.
  • I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself justify not being so visible due to not wanting others to see my faults
  • I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define that which I write – as faults, and within this not see, realize and understand that faults of mine that others are able to see are able to be accounted for, compensated for and corrected because they are seen. I now realize that being visible is a key element of integrity/trustworthiness.
  • I forgive myself that I hadn’t accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the point of visibility within/as integrity/trustworthiness. I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to suppress this key viewpoint of visibility in favor of a personality that prefers to remain in the shadows.


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December 17, 2013

Welcome to the Machine – Part One

For some time now, I’ve been writing on the subject of information accountability and its relationship to integrity, how through information accountability we may be able to assist ourselves individually and collectively to cultivate a form integrity within and as humanity. I had been looking at different perspectives or dimensions of integrity, but there was a point that I just wasn’t getting. Then yesterday while reading a Desteni forum chat on the subject of integrity – I came across one point or perspective on integrity that I had completely missed. “With having a look at Integrity from a physical dimension – the physical is an example of integrity, it stands by itself and by all its parts in the interconnected equality and oneness, is constant and consistent and with this – trustworthy. So, I would say integrity is made up of being constant, consistent and trustworthy with visible stability.” Sunette Spies.

So, the point that I’ve been missing all this time in terms of defining integrity and walking a process to stand as it, is that of “trustworthy with visible stability.” So, to push through this point here is a post – that like me – is a writing in progress.

Some time ago I wrote about our lack of information integrity/accountability wherein I stated, “Information Unaccountability is a weapon of mass destruction that will continue to spread destruction, disease and death until “We the People” stand up and become accountable sources of all our information within and as the Public Domain.”

By weapon of mass destruction destruction, I am referring to humans’ every thought, word and deed causing the compounding consequences of this reality – dissonance, disharmony, a human race at war with itself and everything else. Scientist seem to be getting warmer regarding their guesses as to how we’ve manifested this disharmonious reality. My guess is the “Big Picture” is not nearly as complex as scientists would have us think and believe. For every action, there is a consequential reaction leading to compounded consequential reactions which are constantly shaping and forming the whole, hole of a reality. In other words, we’re all responsible for the outflows of consequence as the creation/formation of what is here.

There is nothing complex about the butterfly effect; it’s just that we perceive the whole to be too immense to consider or take into account before we think, speak and act, often choosing instead to ignore the whole in favor of the self-interests of our small minds, kind of like the crowd mentality when someone yells “Fire!” or “Free X box!.” In other words, it’s the little interactions done without considering the effect that such actions will have on down the relationship-lines to other people’s realities, the world-system and the world as a whole.

Take for example the porn watchers on their computers and TV’s. As far as most of them are probably concerned, there’s no harm in just looking at what’s already been filmed. However, if they would consider the bigger picture, they might see that every time they click on the mouse and view a new page, they’re most likely generating money as incentive to the entire industry; thus participating in and causing consequences all the way down to the children who are used, abused and discarded all because of a demand by end-users at various points within and as the relationship lines of the porn industry.

Just as every drop of water equally determines the nature of the sea, so too does every human equally determine the nature of humanity. While it may be difficult to imagine how every action of each-human goes on to influence all other actions; thus creating the outflows of consequence to/as all of humanity; when we put this consideration simply in terms of information within and as the public domain of the Internet, the problem becomes not only more manageable but also completely mappable, traceable along all relationship lines to all points of interaction to all human origins.

Each drop of water from a perspective of awareness is the sea, one with and equal to all drops of water. Our sea of harmony would be one in which all drops of water understand their interconnectedness and thus their responsibilities to express themselves in manners that (rather than compete with and harm other drops of water), assist and support them because all realize that they/we as the sea are one and the same.

In other words, we humans as drops within and as the sea simply require to take responsibility for ourselves and all that is here as ourselves, the sea. How are we going to do this? It’s a multidimensional process, and in these next few posts I’m primarily going to focus on that of Information as it pertains to people and the World Wide Web (of information).

Information, I would say is like the identifying factors of the formations and pathways of both the physical and energetic realities.  Even though the physical reality is influenced by energy information, it remains constant, consistent and trustworthy. In other words, the problem isn’t in how earth and this physical existence functions; it functions fine. The problem is that the outflows of consequence created by humans unto earth – this physical existence – are taking too much of a toll on earth’s ability to maintain the equilibrium of the ecosystem. It’s getting out of control because humanity is out of control; not enough people are taking responsibility for their thoughts, words and deeds. It’s like shouting out, “I hate you.” without considering who’s in ear-shot and what their reactions will be once they perceive that you hate them. Or releasing tons of chemicals into a water supply without considering how those chemicals are going to interact with the plants and animals, and what will happen when other animals such as people consume that which has been contaminated. It’s out of control because we humans have abdicated our responsibilities as integral drops of water within and as the sea; choosing instead our perceptions of free-choice in the free-dome of a human race to be the last consumer to cry buy! buy! in a dead sea. Yes, we humans are the fuck ups; it’s never been the effect of the butterfly, it’s always been the human effect.

Herein, the question is simple: how are we going to harmonize all humans – as our relationships – to sound standings of integrity/trustworthiness before we all self destruct? The most responsible solution would probably be for each human to simply change his/her internal mind/physical relationships to equal and one sound standings of integrity so as to also change the world system – the reflection of humans’ internal and external relationships – to thus reflect our collective standing of sound integrity. Unfortunately, far too many humans have yet to realize or even imagine how it is that the worldwide disharmony (from the small to the big reflecting back unto all) that we perceive to be caused by someone else is in reality equally as one caused by us all; thus requiring all of us to equally as one to take responsibility for righting all.

Taking responsibility for ourselves does not call for suddenly stopping our participation in the world-system just because there are points of evil within and as our relationship lines; this would be like the bubble suddenly bursting (which may happen anyway) and just causing more chaos and more suffering. Instead, it’s a process wherein we walk all relationship points of and as the sea so as to see, realize and understand how it is that we are all in each moment equally as one creating what is here.

Obviously, this is an immense ongoing process. As it has been a process of getting ourselves to a point of almost zero integrity, so to will it be a process returning to the stand of integrity. How fast and how easy or difficult this process is going to be depends on the willingness of individuals to participate; to begin with, each one’s willingness to become accountable open-sources of all our public information, so as to participate internally and externally in this process of realigning all of our relationships to equal standings of integrity – from the without of the world system to the within of each human, and vice versa.

Now for the point of information accountability as it may pertain to Integrity in a new world order. In short, the lack of integrity within and as the human-race leaves us with little choice but to impose information accountability upon ourselves so as to cultivate a form of integrity so as to stabilize, stop and reverse the decline of mankind. Welcome to the machine!

To be continued.


November 23, 2013

The Solution to Exceptionalism

Filed under: Writing out the Mind: 2010-July 2, 2012 — Tags: — Thomas La Grua @ 7:25 pm

Vladimir Putin’s “It is extremely dangerous to encourage people to see themselves as exceptional, whatever the motivation.” underscores the spitefulness of and as mankind’s original starting-point from which we as the human race have brought ourselves and this planet to the brink of extinction.


Some people might think that the word, “Spite” is overkill, but really it’s not. And if people in general were not so brainwashed by religion, consumerism, education, culture, family, tradition and so on, this would be easy to see this.


In a closed in world – a vacuum called Earth – with limited resources, competition for resources should not even exist. But it does, which means that some have far more than an ‘equal’ share. Why? Because we steal it from the innocent and those that are less inclined or endowed to play and survive in this competitive game of exceptionalism.


In school, they’ll tell you that these are the competitive rules by which all must abide, but I will tell you that this is just another part of the lie, a campaign to keep people brainwashed, deaf, dumb and blind.

You can blame “God’s will” or the so-called law of survival of the fittest, but when it’s all said and done, it just comes down to one word, spite. It’s a frame of mind embodied within and as the sea of humanity wherein drops of water believe themselves to be exceptional, separate from the sea.


There’s only one rule to understand:


Be the best that one is able to be, which is defined as that which is in all-ways best for all.


Our freedom of choice as our right to spite one-another says to go-ahead and continue to ignore, pray if you like, anything to avoid having to actually do something that places you/me at risk of being the nail in the coffin that stood up just to get hammered back down.


From this dead-end of a Human Race as the sea of life in a constant state of self consumption, there is only one unending solution, a course correction (from the Rule of Spite) to the Principle of Oneness and Equality within what is best for all. Herein and as this open-source foundation of life, let us all unite to resolve the inequalities of Life.



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